past. present. future.

• the first time around was the longest. immature but fun. difficult but so worth it. full of complex emotion. unforgettable.

• the second time around was crowded; too many people involved. enjoyable. short-lived and rushed. the pain turned into revenge.

• the third time around was careless. long awaited and needed. for one. brief  and ended miserably. for one.

• the fourth time around was unexpected.  fun as usual. the inexplicable connection resurfaced. complicated of course. but ever so lovely.

& now. looking back. i understand. i learned and grew through the tough times. & i am more me than ever. so before the fifth time comes around i’m calling it quits. adios. and most importantly saying goodbye. but just for the record….

 “this is fun. you’re fun.”